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i never want to be a father. I hate fathers.
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| kill the rich and feed them to the poor |
[12 Jul 2005|10:30pm] |
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wu-tang - liquid swords |
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ive been stuck in a rut lately. I guess its only becuase nothing awesome has happened.
All the projects ive taken up lately seem to be failing or atleast not working out how i planned. I dunno maybe i should get used to it, but how do you get used to shit? Sorry about the emo entry but its just where i am right now.
On a lighter note my mom hooked me up with another job. So two jobs, im still broke and i have to be at work at 9am tommorow. This wouldnt be so bad if i hadnt gotten an incredible 8 hours of sleep in the last 72 hours.At this rate i think im going to be a
terrorist when i grow up.
Oh and to top it all off i got invited to go to school at the OAC which is an objectivist think tank. Objectivist in the ayn rand libertarian ethical egoism sense.
Problem is i dont have enough money to live in berkely california for a couple years.
Things could really be looking up for me if i had any money.
p.s. my phone is broken but i can still check my messages so if you want to get in touch with me just leave a message.
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| Does anybody read/use deadjournal during the summer? |
[02 Jun 2005|01:08pm] |
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the beatles- help! |
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Man Last night was awesome on so many levels. Thanks to ryan and ben for keeping it real. I feel like this house is eating me alive sometimes but i love it. Help me not be a recluse and somebody do something fun.
I love my dad becuase now i know that radiohead's karma
police is really a tribute/copy of cry baby cry and sexy sadie by the beatles. My dad is a walking talking rock and roll museum. im sad that it took 21 years for me to finally have a relationship with him that would allow the unleashing of his awesome musical power but im also happy that atleast i have that now.
I think im about ready to have a crush on a girl. I havent had one in a long time so ladies if you want an awkwardly weird boy to be totally crushing on you let me know.
im out.
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| Too much boring |
[25 May 2005|02:32am] |
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seu jorge - Tive razao |
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So confused.
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[19 Apr 2005|12:36am] |
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dismemberment plan- girl o'clock |
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"if i dont have sex by the end of the week im going to die....."
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| Back From Florida |
[04 Apr 2005|11:49pm] |
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Love - seven and seven is |
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Man, riding in the car with my dad and talking has helped me figure out a little bit more of why i am the way i am. I think i understand music, drugs, mental health, and many other things far more solidly than i ever have in my entire life. Im not gonna go into detail becuase most of it is extremely personal, but i'll just say that ive never been prouder to be a part of my family.
Also my political beliefs update:
Democratic party: racist and power hungry
republican party: good at economics bad at social issues
green party: taking care of the environment is good but
those guys are completely insane
libertarians: Amazingly good ideas but will probably
never happen.
James Brown: Brilliant musician but also completely
insane.
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| Music stupid talk |
[01 Apr 2005|01:55am] |
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Mc5 - rambling rose |
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Man i cant believe how much my music has changed in the last 5 years however, There is one consistant problem with music these days. Nobody rocks anymore. Theres no Mc5, at the drive in had it for a little while, and theres the bands like the blood brothers, and the locusts etc. but i mean theres no crazy ass rawk bands out right now. Somebody needs to make something that isnt hardcore, isnt indie, is just rock.
Im talking "kick out the jams motherfucker" rock, maybe
somebody will come up with something soon but if not i totally want to.
I mean it wouldnt be so hard to get a couple shows around atlanta. So if anybody knows anybody who likes yelling through a distorted microphone let me know.
P.s. Mc. Chris is the nicest guy ever.
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[21 Mar 2005|11:20pm] |
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your a rock n roll suicide. |
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Man going to the Interpol reminded me of alot of things i dont like about people/music/everything.
First a shout out to people at the concert i just got back from.
!!! your in a crowd of hundreds of people at an interpol concert why would you ever dance all crazy/jump up and down to the music/flash the metal horns with your hands/mosh/crowd surf/etc !?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
ok why does every new band get the title of rock n' roll messiah? Its like if we were looking for a new jesus while jesus was still around. No band is just going to show up and make it the 50's/60's/70's/ (whichever one you think was the climax of rock)
again, so get over it. Basically im just tired of music critics.
Rolling Stone is kissing the asses of bands like Northern State and Pitchfork is hyping everything they get their hands on in hopes of "discovering" the next big thing.
I have nowhere to turn. I mean musical taste is so subjective that i guess writing about it is almost void of any meaning whatsoever.But still it seems like there would be more writers out there who didnt fall into some sort of stereotype of a music critic.
This may seem kind of random and probably doesnt make any sense, but its been bugging me for awhile and now im all out of steam.....the end
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| david bowie |
[12 Mar 2005|05:33pm] |
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david bowie |
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"And I mean amateur in that dedicated fashion you find in a man who, only on Sundays, will build a cathedral out of matchsticks, beautiful but only to please himself and his family and friends."
<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
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| Late night |
[16 Feb 2005|05:33am] |
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m83 - slowly |
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Staying up all night is good for two things. Finding new music, and annoying sleeping roomates. Sorry if i kept anybody up last night(quax), i didnt mean to, sometimes its easy to forget how thin the walls in this house are.
pseudoantidisredopplegangerianisticism.
English sminglish, we make up our own words.
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| out of control |
[05 Feb 2005|04:08am] |
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I feel like my life keeps slipping more and more out of control. I think i need to change alot of things. The bi-polar has definitely been kicking me around lately and i think some other things just add to it. Or maybe i just need more self respect. Either way i think im going to up the prescribed medication and lower the unprescribed. Oh well im getting way to personal on here , im gonna go let david bowie sing me to sleep.
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| Do you ever think about life? |
[24 Jan 2005|01:09pm] |
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mc. Chris |
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Ive been thinking about school alot lately.<br><br><br> My entire college career,
which is in no way impressive, has been me aimlessly taking whatever
class interests me or somehow gets in my way.
This is a result of me not having any idea what i want to do with my life, but I think i might
have figured some stuff out. I think im going to change my major to
advertising.<br><br><br> I dunno why exactly, but ive been observing my personality
lately and i think im on to something.
As the people who live with me
or know me well can attest to, my sense of humor and most traits of my
personality, are revieled in short explosions of communication. These
ejaculations of whatever ive been pondering for past moments have been
rightfully named "elliot stories." My current conclusion for these and
many other aspects of my personality and my thought process, is that
anything i create or think up is going to be short and only momentarily
useful, yet theres a high chance it will be rememberd and brought up
later in discussion. i think my talents and pretty much the way my
brain works would be used way more productively in the advertising
world than in the financial sector. But i might be wrong.<br>
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<center><b>I just dont want to end up never doing anything that would get more attention than this spoiled whore </center></b>
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| Man |
[18 Jan 2005|08:24pm] |
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I think i took things a little too far last time. I'll give it a little time to see if it fades away but im pretty sure i messed something up.
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| evil empire |
[23 Dec 2004|03:03pm] |
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Im telling you man the u.n. are a bunch of crooks. First the food for oil scam running all the way up to kofi annon, than kofi covers up all the sexual harrassing his staff has done, and now this.
http://www.timesonline.co.uk/article/0,,3-1413501,00.html
I know nobody is going to read this article so i'll just some it up. Peace keeping troops from the u.n. have been raping and video taping sex with 12 year old girls in the congo. There have allready been 150 accounts of sexual misconduct and 141 woman made pregnant by rape or
trading food/jobs/money for sex in one month alone.There are also reports of men raping girls as young as 10 years old than after the rape the victim is given food or money to make it look like prostitution. Officials have been hiding the rapists from investigators and one man was even hidden for an entire year by his officers in the barracks.
Why is america involved with an organization filled with a bunch of thieves and rapists?
plus if you want to see some amazing flash work go here and click on everything.http://www.arcadefire.com/flashy/
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[21 Dec 2004|12:39am] |
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im so sick of this world. Everything is so fucked up. Ive been following this story about a lady who called to order a dog from another woman who sells dogs. The Lady who wanted to buy the dog came to pick it up and ended up strangling the dog seller and tearing out her unborn daughter. The Daughter lived and i guess thats a miracle but the dad now has to live with a constant reminder of his murdered wife. The child will someday find out that she was never born like everybody else and the other details of her grizzly orgins. What is wrong with people?There are alot of people who dont deserve to live and its fucked up that those same people seem to be constantly deciding our fate.
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| weird days |
[06 Dec 2004|12:26pm] |
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1969- boards of canada |
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yesterday was the most bizarre day ever. Mainly i was recovering from an emothionaly traumatic weekend. Which sounds really gay and lame but it seriously was. All saturday i felt like such a complete tool and an idiot. I guess the old ada`ge <--(quax) about how you dont know how important something is untill its gone, is true. Sunday is far to bizarre to even try to explain.
Lets just say go to www.fat-pie.com and watch the salad fingers cartoons while listening to the song 1969 by boards of canada.
I found an alesis sr- 16 drum machine that i will buy as
soon as i have the money for it.
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| insomnia |
[29 Nov 2004|11:54am] |
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the faint - mote |
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let me tell you about insomnia. It sucks.
I thought utah cured it but it turns out that was only becuase of the jet lag mixed in with the going to bed at like 5 (ga time) every night. Staying up for longer than 24 hours is a bizzar thing. Everything starts feeling like a dream and you lose track of the days big time. Everything melts into one really really long drawn out day. So you miss a nights sleep and think "werd! tonight im gonna sleep so good!" but than you dont. There is one slight upside to it though. When your up for several days in a row you feel like youve somehow conquerd sleep, and that you are above the common weaknesses of mankind. Thats the only upside.
Work, school, relationships, mental health, physical health, and everything else get tossed into a blender and your left in all the rubble to try and straighten things out.
on a good note:
- my dad is paying for this semester today so i can finally register and start saving up for next semester.
- theres this guy at uga who is creating the cure to aids/ebola/maleria/sars/every virus. release date is in approximately 2 years. Ask me how he did it in person becuase its far too complicated to type out. Lets just say it has to do with genes and the future......... and lasers.....maybe.
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